FICTION

I still can't forget you
I still can't trust everything
Even today I can't send you away like this
I will rewrite it again, our story will not end
I will bury fact that reality is seeping into my skin for now
I rewrite it once again, that start beginning with you and I smiling happily
In case you will leave me, the background is a small room without an exit
I kiss you as if there is nothing wrong
I can't leave your sweet presence
There is no such thing as an end for us
Like this again (fiction in fiction)
I can't forget you (fiction in fiction)
I am writing the story that will never end in my heart
I will hold on to you (fiction in fiction)
I wan't let you go (fiction in fiction)
Even today, I'm in the story of you and I that hasn't ended still, in fiction
Right now, there are only happy stories here
The very happy stories of just the two of us (different from reality)
Is written here, it's slowly filling up
I run towards you and embrace you
I can't never let you go from my embrace
There is no such thing as an end for us
I will say this again, one more time
Right now you are next to me
I'm believing like that
But Fiction
I'm the writer who lost his purpose
The end of this novel, how am I suppoused to write it
(My Own Fiction)
I love you, I love you, I love you
I keep writing these 3 words
(Everything is Fiction) setting the warn out pen on the old stained in tears
(Everything is Fiction) this story can't be happy or sad
Right now I'm writing such a happy story
But it is all just a wish still
I'm happy (Fiction in Fiction)
We are together (Fiction in Fiction)
Now is the start (Fiction in Fiction)
There is no end (Fiction in Fiction)

By BEAST~~^^ (lyric)

MIDNIGHT (Night I count the stars)

How are you? Do you think of me from time to time?
In this long night, I close my eyes again
I think of you, I can't sleep, this is how I'm doing
The night is especially longer tonight, this is night without you
I'm regretting that day I let you go
Continously muted and slowly forgotten
That is how you will be one day
This night I can't fall asleep in so sad tonight
This night I can't spend with you
In the midnight, a midnight
The midnight I can't sleep from my thoughts of you
This night that found me again so sad tonight
This night I greet again without you
In the midnight, a midnight
This midnight I can't fall asleep without you
You found me faster than the time I take to blink
The love that left me, dear you can't do this to me
Enough, it's enough, stop hurting me
This night I call pathetic never seems to end
Even though I don't want to bring up past stories
But I must have really liked you
Continously remembered and slowly yearning
As more time elapses
The little star twinkling above, comfort me
Tonight is the night where everything collapses with no where else the rest
That little star twinkling above, comfort me collapsing without anywhere to rest
The night I count the stars, the night that slowly transforms because of the changing seasons
However, this night is still the night I still can't seem to fall asleep in sleep

By BEAST~~ ^.^ (lyric)

SHOCK

Every day I just can't control
Every night the loneliness is my love
Can't breathe, my body's getting stiff like an ice
Hey dear, stay here, I'm going blind
No way losing my way, why are you drifting away?
I don't want to get hurt, but what will we do with my love struck heart?
I don't hear anything
I don't see anything
ever since you've left
Everything stopped, and now it's over and my existence is fading away
Even I close my eyes, you're still fading away from my memories
Every day I shock, every night I shock
I'm sorry, please come back to my side
Every day I shock, every night I shock
Because of you I can't focus on anything else
Come to me, tonight's so crazy
Come back to me, I'm waiting for you, tonight's so crazy
I don't think I can ever wake up from my shock
Once I wake up, you're not by my side
Now you're laughing like a lunatic
I'm struggling everyday againts the clashing waves of loneliness
I can't forget you for the rest of my life
If I knew it would be like this I would have held you back
Then it wouldn't have been so hard
Even I try to embrace you once more I can't, cause I can't even move a single finger
It's hard to breathe and my heart is hurt
The more I think about you
The longer I idle while sitting down and I can't get anything done
Every night in my dream
I can't hear your voice
So, where are you?
If you're happy to be away from my side
Then I will try to hold in my tears for you
 
By BEAST~~ ^.^ (lyric)

Jangan Ada Lagi

Ijinkan aku pergi
dan tak kembali
Ijinkan aku lari
dan tak berhenti
Meninggalkan semua kenangan
yang ingin kulupakan
karena terlalu menyakitkan
Masa lalu pahit itu
Semua tentang kamu
Juga sosok sepertimu
Jangan ada lagi
Karena hati ini
Berhenti...
Sampai disini

Siapa Dirimu?

Kau pikir siapa dirimu?
Sudah berarti untukku?
Bagiku kau bukan siapa-siapa
Hanya seseorang yang lewat dalam hidupku
Tak berarti apa-apa
Jadi jika ingin menghilang dariku
Lakukan saja!
Jika ingin melupakanku
Aku akan tetap baik-baik saja
Tak akan ada air mata yang jatuh
Tak akan ada sumpah serapah
Tak akan ada kata-kata memohon
Agar kau tetap tinggal
Memang, Siapa dirimu?

BREATH

Let me talk about my...
At your cold back turned away from me, it's like time just froze for a second
In my white, blank mind, I need to hold on to you, no I need to send you away
Living on forgetting you, crying because I couldn't forget you
They say I should just leave it to be, I'm not too sure myself
I want to forget, if you turn away from me I don't want to hold on to you again
Words from you telling me to think about this over and over again
I don't want to ponder over that anymore, now I want to throw you away
Don't go, don't leave me, thinking many times over again
I think it will be hard for me to forget
I don't think I can forget you
I can't take my breath
As time passes by, as more time passes by
No longer I can't hold my breath
As more time trickles by, my breath starts to suffocate me, my breath
Breath in, breath out
I want to erase, there is no longer a space for you, no place for you return
If you come closer to me, I think I will go further away from you
Can you move out of the way now? I want to throw you away
Stop, don't try to turn back, thinking many times over again
I think it will be really bad to erase you, I will really so crazy
I don't know
Yes or no the night with lights asleep, the room with light turned of, my tangled up toughts of you
Doesn't untangle, what do I have to blame to make myself feel a liitle bit better?
Was this deep love a sin? They say I should just leave it to be, Huh... I'm not too sure my self 


By BEAST (lyric)

Late, Too Late

Terlambat, terlalu terlambat
Kau pikir kau siapa?
Membiarkanku menunggu terlalu lama
Kau bilang kau butuh waktu, tetapi kapan?
Itu sangat lama bahkan aku sudah tak bisa mengingatnya

Entah kau minta maaf atau tidak, hasilnya tetap sama
Tak akan berubah, tak akan pernah berbeda
Karena tak akan kembali hari itu saat aku menunggumu
Menunggu kata-kata yang keluar dari mulutmu
Entah kata cinta atau kata lainnya
Tetapi engkau tak kunjung datang juga

Aku rasa aku telah menantinya terlalu lama
Menanti sebuah kata yang tak pernah ada
Aku marah kupikir kau telah berubah
Kau membuatku berjalan tak tentu arah dan sekarang aku sudah lelah
Jadi walau kau sudah kembali
Dengan penyesalan setengah mati
Tetapi tetap saja kini atau nanti
Bagiku sudah tak ada arti
Pergi! Pergi! Jangan kembali lagi!

Make Me Crazy!!!

Aku tidak bisa hidup seperti ini lagi, ini membuatku gila!
Aku ingin lari, aku ingin pergi, aku ingin mati!

Tolong akhiri sampai disini! Penderitaan ini, rasa sakit ini, luka hati ini. Ini begitu menyesakkan. Begitu menyakitkan.

Aku sudah tak tahan lagi dengan semua ini. Tolong ambillah nafas ini! Cukup sampai hari ini! Cukup sampai detik ini!

Bagiku Dia Begitu Cantik

Aku akan bercerita tentang seseorang yang biasa kupanggil Ibu, bukan dalam arti Ibu yang sebenarnya.

Bagiku dia begitu cantik dari ujung kepala sampai ujung kaki dan jujur aku begitu mengaguminya. Aku juga tau dia orang baik meski dia tida pernah perduli padaku atau dia hanya tidak pernah memperlihatkannya padaku dan kuharap juga demikian.

Namun sikapnya selalu saja membuatku bingung dan tanpa kusadari ini bermulai dari aku kecil, mungkin ketika aku mulai bisa mengingat akan masa kecilku. Aku merasa dia selalu saja memperlakukanku dengan berbeda dan sikapnya itu berlangsung hingga kini.

Dia selalu ramah pada semua orang tetapi kenapa denganku tidak, atau itu hanya perkiraanku saja?

Entah kenapa aku selalu dapat menangkap kilat matanya yang memandangku seakan ia membenciku. Aku juga tidak mengerti mengapa kata-katanya yang tajam selalu menusuk sampai ulu hati dan selalu terpatri. Aku masih bisa mengingatnya dengan jelas hingga kini.

Jika ditanya apakah aku membencinya? Tentu saja aku akan menjawab "Tidak!" dan itu benar-benar dari hatiku yang paling dalam.

Sebenarnya ada apa denganku? Apa yang salah dariku? Apakah aku begitu menyebalkan? Apakah aku telah mengecewakan di? Atau apakah memang setiap orang yang melihatku akan langsung membenciku?

Kadang aku ingin bertanya kenapa dia bersikap seperti itu padaku? Tetapi jangankan bertanya memandang kedua matanya saja aku tak sanggup.

Setiap aku berpapasan dengannya entah kenapa aku selalu saja meneteskan air mata tapi tentu saja setelah dia pergi dan tidak ada siapapun yang melihatku.

Sungguh! Walaupun dia bersikap seperti itu padaku, aku tidak pernah membencinya, sekalipun tidak! Bahkan aku selalu berdo'a untuknya, semoga saja dia selalu bahagia dan aku sangat berharap dia mau memaafkanku jika aku memang telah menyakitinya. Semoga suatu saat nanti dia akan perduli padaku serta menyayangiku dengan segenap hatinya.

Tuhan, mungkin permintaanku terlalu banyak tapi kumohon Tuhan aku ingin do'aku menjadi nyata. Aamiin...

Just That Little Thing

Hey, there's only one way to quit playing this game
I can't stop loving you. I can't stop missing you

I always believed in you but I was always deceived
Your obvious lies, your same lies
How could you?

(Because I loved you) I held it in
(Because I loved you) I let you go
Now no no, for real, no no
At this rate, I will die

It's just that little thing so let's break up
It's just that little thing so I won't ever hold onto you
I promise myself every day and I keep getting deceived
But once again, I look for you

It's just that little thing so let's not meet
It's just that little thing so I will forget you
I try to hating you, I try to forgetting you
But I am always lingering at the same time

I can't do this anymore because it's too hard

I think we're done, yeah that's wassup
It's twisted and faded, we're not like before
It's like never ending story, a knot that
Won't come undone, girl I'm sick
No love I can't see- our relationship it just up till here

It's above that only gave me pain, a love that only gave me sadness
I hated you, I really hated you, you're such a bad person

Why are you doing this? It's not like you
This is enough for me, let's end this coolly
I finally realized, it's my loss if I stay with you

I was upset every day, I doubted every day
I went crazy because of you

I loved you but it so hard
I regretted every day
(Tell me why make me cry!)
I really hate you

I hate it, hate it, let's end it here
I hate it, hate it, any kind of love

Really, bye bye bye
I am cry cry cry
Now I'm too tired

By MYNAME (lyric)

Karena DIA Maha Tau

Aku coba renungkan kata terakhirmu untukku
Tidak taukah kau?
Itu menyakitkan untukku

Aku ingin bilang padamu bahwa aku tidak seperti itu
Namun itu tidak mungkin

Saat aku menyadari Tuhan tau apa yang terjadi sebenarnya, secercah harapan muncul
Tetapi aku menjadi lebih malu
Karena DIA Maha Tau
Betapa buruknya aku, betapa hinanya aku
Hingga aku menyadari aku memang tidak pantas untukmu
Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik untukmu dan untukku

INSANE

(Oh Baby without you...)

When I walked you back home, it was the house of another guy
I felt like you always walked a bit farther from me when there were a lot of people
Just like a big ballon shrinking down, we have cooled down
I can't hide my frustrated heart
What went wrong?

It's always the same as last night-you turn away from me
I'm so tired of me always being the clingy one
Because to me, it was always you. I always trusted you
So every night it's lonely, miserable, firing

I will leave for you so I will get to hate you
Now I won't cling onto you anymore
I'm gonna be better- it's better if I'm not here
Especially today, you have so many secrets

You make me go insane
She gives me so much pain
I won't be back again I wanna hate you
(You always pretend nothing is wrong. Did you have to pick up the phone right now?)

Every night, you always turn away from me
(Going back before I met you- ridin now, say goodbye)
Although itLs hard to let you go without regret

I still hasn't hit me yet about you
The promises we made are gone with the wind
The onlu remaining thing is your cold eyes
Like a wretch, I still miss your smile
I hate myself for that
I still can't acknowledge that it's the end for you and me
I wish I could die

The memories of when I first saw you become faint
The love swing has stopped
I board the train that will never come back
I'll let you go. I'll let you go...

I'll throw it all away, now I'll let it all go
You can leave me now
Don't ever look for me- though my heart hurts
So I can forget you

By BTOB (lyric)

I WANNA LOVE

I need somebody somebody to love
I wanna love

Put all the uncomfortable memories behind
Find a different love, let's go, I will change

It's been long since I've been hurt and cast aside
They say it's always like that, they say that love hurts
(I just wanna forget) it was pretty hard
(just leave me alone) just let it fly away

More and more the longing creeps up to me and strangles me
I'm sick of crying every single day, I'm let it go

I wanna love
Don't hurt me girl!

I wanna love now, I wanna love you more
Passionately than anyone else
I wanna love like others now, oh my love, oh my love

Love love love love I wanna love

It's time to move on
Here we go Teen top top

I wanna love now

I don't want to be hurting alone anymore
How many night do I have to spend in tears?
If it's you, I think I can always smile
That's how I feel but why you don't know?

They say that love scar can be healed by a different person
This tiring loneliness can stop here, STOP no more rainy days
Like a TV that's turn on in dark room, I was all alone
I need somebody, oh yeah, like LL, I need love

Don't worry about anything, I won't ever make you cry
I only need you to be by side until always

By TEENTOP (lyric)

Pasrah atau Menyerah

Aku harus pasrah atau menyerah? Aku tak tau dengan apa yang harus aku lakukan. Kehidupan memang tak selalu indah dengan apa yang diimpikan. Nah disaat itulah terkadang aku ingin menyerah dan meninggalkan segalanya. Aku bahkan berdoa agar aku bisa pergi meninggalkan dunia dengan cepat. Tetapi kematian pasti tidaklah mudah seperti yang dibayangkan, pasti ada pembalasan setelah kematian bukan? ya Allah jika hidupku ini hanya akan membuat orang disekitarku susah dan sedih karena aku maka ambillah nyawaku hari ini bahkan detik ini karena aku tidak mau menyusahkan orang lain dan membuat mereka sedih karena aku. Aku lebih baik disakiti daripada menyakiti orang lain. Aku tak mau menjadi orang yang membuat orang lain terluka. Kumohon ya Allah! Tetapi jika hidupku akan membuat orang bahagia dan keberadaanku berguna bagi mereka maka panjangkanlah umurku!. Kumohon Allah jadikan aku orang yang bermanfaat bagi orang disekitarku dan bisa membahagiakan mereka! Kumohon ya Allah Yang Maha Mendengar! Aamiin.

Resensi Novel The Depth of Love

Sebenarnya apa ya tulisanku ini, novelkah? Naskah atau...??? Hahaha..entahlah aku juga sendiri bingung tapi terserahlah aku hanya ingin membagi apa yang ada dipikiranku, apa yang telah kutulis dan semoga saja ada yang mau membacanya ya..hehehe.. Ayo dong baca! Please reading! * ah maksa banget ya* wkwkwk :D

SINOPSIS SINGKAT NOVEL The Depth of Love

Maya tidak menduga akan ada seseorang yang membawanya menjadi bagian dari agen rahasia. Tetapi ternyata menjadi agen rahasia itu tidak mudah. Banyak hal yang harus Maya pelajari, terlebih lagi ia sama sekali tidak berbakat dan tidak berpengalaman dalam hal ini.

Banyak juga yang tidak menginginkan dengan keberadaan Maya salah satunya adalah seorang laki-laki bernama Robin yang selalu saja mengatakan bahwa Maya tidak pantas berada di National Secret Agent. Robin selalu berusaha untuk dapat mengeluarkan Maya dari sana. Ini membuat Maya harus berjuang keras agar dapat bertahan di NSA. Untungnya Maya tidak sendiri ada Daniel yang membantu dan mendukungnya. Akankah Maya dapat bertahan untuk menjadi agen rahasia?

Main Cast:

Maya
Robin
Daniel
Rosyana

Supporting Cast:

Niki
Fandy
Zen
Surya Atmaja (Pak Surya/Guru)
Nadiana (Bu Nadiana)
Kyle
Anggara (Father's Robin)
Mirna (Mother's Robin)
Leo
Irza
Auna

Tips Menghilangkan STRESS ala diriku

Benar juga ya kalau kita lagi stress lakukanlah sesuatu yang positif maka stressnya berangsur-angsur akan menghilang. Saat down atau lagi badmood cobalah melakukan sesuatu yang menenangkan pikiran! Seperti apa ya??? Sebenarnya apapun yang kalian sukai yang dapat membuat kalian tertawa ataupun merasa senang itu juga bisa mengurangi tingkat stress yang kita alami, tapi kalau aku biasanya melakukan hal-hal semacam ini:

1. Tarik nafas dalam-dalam kemudian hembuskan perlahan

2. Membersihkan barang-barang yang terlihat kotor disekeliling kita karena dengan melihat lingkungan yang bersih akan memberi energi positif dan kemungkinan pikiran kita akan beralih kepada sesuatu yang lain

3. Menyanyikan lagu, mendengarkan lagu, atau menonton apapun yang kita sukai

4. Membaca sesuatu yang bermanfaat yang dapat membangun diri lebih baik lagi

5. Membaca Al-Qur'an atau solat sunah. HaHaHa seharusnya ini memang ditingkat pertama tetapi karena tidak semua orang sealim dirimu jadi apa boleh buat inilah yang aku lakukan jika aku sedang stress. Tetapi jangan sampai berat ya kawan, aku takut nanti harus ke psikiater apalagi jika ujung-ujungnya di RSJ, ya ampun ga dech! Jangan sampai! * ihhh..amit2! *

Nah, so you guys jika kalian stress apa yang kalian lakukan? Tolong dong kita saling berbagi informasi biar ga stress terus...wkwkwk :)

MENGINGAT DIRIMU

Dimalam yang sangat dingin, aku merindukan dirimu
Aku sungguh merasa kehilanganmu

Mengingat dirimu sungguh menyakitkan
Mengingat dirimu memilukan hati

Oh kau membuatku merasa aku yang salah

DILEMA

Kata yang terdengar membosankan
Tetapi nyatanya itulah yang dirasakan
Dilematis hidupku
Antara kebaikan dan keburukan

Kadang berbuat benar
Kadang berbuat salah
Bukankah tak ada yang sempurna
Asal kita belajar dari kesalahan dan tak mengulanginya

Bisakah aku kembali kepada yang benar?
Setelah aku melakukan kesalahan yang sama
Mungkinkah aku mengambil jalan yang lurus?
Setelah lama terbuai melangkah kekanan kekiri

Sungguh dilema
Karena aku bebas memilih
Aku sadar konsekuensinya
Bantu aku memilih yang terbaik untukku!
Supaya aku tidak dilema

BLUE

The winter had passed and the spring has come
We have withered and our heart are bruised from longing

(I'm singing my blues) Used the blue tears, blue sorrow
(I'm singin my blues) The love that I have sent away with the floating clouds

Under the same sky, at different places
Because you and I are dangerous
I am leaving you
One letter difference from 'nim'
It's cowardly but I'm hiding because I'm not good enough
Cruel breakup is like the end of the road of love
No words can comfort me
Perhaps my lifetime's last melodrama
Now its final curtain is coming down

I was born and I met you
And I have loved you to death
My cold heart that has been dyed blue
Even with my eyes closed, I can't feel you

I feel like my heart has stopped beating
You and I, frozen there, after a war
Trauma, that has been carved in my head
Once these tears dry up, I will moistly remember my love

I'm neither painful nor lonely
Happiness is all self-talk
I can't stand something more complicated
It's no big deal, I don't care
Inevitable wandering, people come and go

I was born and I met you
And I have loved you to death
My cold heart that has been dyed blue
Even if you have left, I'm still here

Again tonight, underneath that blue moonlight
I will probably fall asleep alone
Even in my dreams, I look for you
And wander around while singing this song

By BIGBANG (lyric)

PARADISE

Because my heart is a broken heart
I can't let you go like this, what now?
Even if I look shaky and dangerous, I can only hold you in, what now?

I love you (I'm sure you do too)
I won't do it (you will do it)
I will do it, I'm only gonna look at you

Please stay here!
I'm asking you a favor, I'll treat you better, I can't let you go yet
I must live, I must survive, cause I will stop someday

This place is paradise only if you're here
A paradise that locked you in against your will
A sad paradise that you won't go if you're awake
A paradise that we can be together forever

I can only watch you while holding my breath
I can only do so cause it might break

You look at me (you probably will) you don't look
You look at me and it hurts

Every night, I filled me with you
Yeah, now I have to fill it with alcohol time
The arm that wrapped, the painting night
The best paradise, without you it's hopeless world

I'm gonna hold you in a little longer, I'm gonna look at you a little more
Until my heart cools off a little more
I must live even without you, but right now I need you

By INFINITE (lyric)

Aku Tetap Aku

Aku ingin menunjukan apa yang kurasakan
Aku ingin maju tetapi aku merasa ragu
Aku ingin aku bukan diriku disaat aku tak bisa memahamimu
Mungkin dengan begitu aku bisa mengerti dirimu
Disaat aku membuka mataku
kuharap kau tetap ada disisiku
Tetapi karena aku yang tak bisa menahanmu karena keegoisanku maafkan aku!
Aku tak bisa mengubah waktu karena aku tetap aku
Maafkan aku!

SOLO

I couldn't say anything and just stood still
I cried for a long time and then opened my mouth
Just give me one more chance
I wanted to hold onto you with these words

Without knowing the reason, I stood in front of you
And after fighting with you like a fool
You left me and I was left alone
In front of your house

Now I'm solo Maybe I'm solo
(I'm sorry, goodbye)
I don't like you
Hello, goodbye, solo

Baby, I want
You were the woman I wanted
You were like a fragnant perfume
I can't forget - Like insane
Our relationship has gone past the river
And can never comeback - again rewind
I'm sorry, I was wrong
I will disappear before your sight

I guess you hated me because I lacked so much
I try to understand but it's not that easy
You're not smiling and you're just giving short answers to me

Now, I'm solo Maybe I'm solo
I don't ever want to meet a person like you
I wanted to break up

Over it's over, you ad me are now over
Love is over, it's over not lover tonight

I know that really screwed up but
Don't just stand that and dig away at my tears
Are you really the person that I loved?
We're not really breaking up
Don't end things so empty

We won't ever go on trips together
We won't ever sing that song together either
My heart feels empty (still feel alone, so lonely)
Now I am lonely and alone
My lonely, burnt up and tired body
Is now going back to before solo solo solo

By C-CLOWN (lyric)

SAFETY ZONE

One, two, three, four, the light turn red
One, two, three, four, tick tock, tock tack

I see you from far away
On top of the collapsed bridge
Swaying, swaying
You walk

My heart rusts and breaks
As I lose my conscience I hold on to you, who is walking in the thick darkness in my dreams

Stop right there!
If you take one more step, I can't protect you
Once again, green light, red light I hold on to you, who has left

Please stop right there!
It's dangerous, I can't let you go alone like this
Once again, green light, red light I'm right there

Something about you is provocative as if I'll get addicted to you

The pain just won't leave and every day I'm blank
Love is like being prickled and prickled by a field of thorns
I'm so pathetic for not being able to forget

As I hold on to your hands tightly

How much more do I have to hurt?
I beg and beg my flower blooms and wither
I forget you

You are my star
You are my dream
You hide inside of me
I have embraced even your pain
I mean safety zone

by DMTN (lyric)

JANUS

I may be smiling right now but I'm trying to hold it in
I'm strongly clutching my two hands
You're being deceived when I'm saying that I'm ok.
I'm shedding all my tears behind your back

Your small, trembling shoulder, your small lips
I'm sorry, you collapse before me
You swallow me up hotly and shed tears
I'm sorry, you hug me with all your strenght

I let out a sigh past your shoulder, tears rise up past your shoulder
But only I know how I look
I want to live in your memory till the end, I want to smile in your memory
Like a fool, I just smile at you

You're not a bad girl, you're not a bad girl
The tears shed for me, put those tears away
She will be hurt, hurt because of me, so I need to hold it in

Why, why, why are you crying because of me?
You should always brightly smile, why are you crying?
Forget me, brush me off and leave in peace
Don't you believe me? I don't want to bring you down

My heart that beat's from deep inside, the lingering attachment that's deep inside
I just bury it as something only I know
I want to see only your smile till the end, I want to protect your smile
Like yesterday, just smile at me

You're not a bad girl, you're not a bad girl
In my heart, in my heart
I hide my feelings, I hide it for you so I need to hold myself back

Only you are my master, if you want you can leave me
I will let you go, for you I will let you go

by BOYFRIEND (lyric)

Kau Adalah...

Kau adalah cinta yang ingin kuada
Kau adalah rindu yang tak kuragu
Kau adalah rasa yang selalu saja tak biasa

Dalam kelam malam ataupun cahaya temaram
Kau tetap mengagumkan

Tak akan bisa kulupakan walau sesaat
Walau mungkin dunia akan kiamat
Kau tetap ingin kuingat

BIARKAN

Biarkan kamu dengan dia...
Aku disini berlalu
Bersama dengan waktu melupakanmu

Rasa rindu
Telah terbelenggu
Rasa sayang
Kini menghilang...

Semua terkenang
Hanya tinggal bayang-bayang
Semu...ragu...
Aku pengganggu

Tidak Bisa Menangis

Rasanya aku ingin menangis tetapi aku tidak bisa menangis. Aku tidak bisa tersenyum tetapi aku harus tersenyum.
Menyembunyikan perasaan memang melelahkan. Tetapi apa yang bisa kulakukan aku tidak bisa mengatakan keadaanku yang sebenarnya. Ini memang menyakitkan dan aku harus tetap bertahan walau begitu menyakitkan.

KIRA

Hanya itukah fikiranmu!
Menudingku...
Anggap aku semaumu
Padahal
Kau tidak tahu apa-apa

Merasa tahu semua tentangku
Memvonisku ini itu...
Heran...sungguh aneh
Katanya sayang

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Membuatku jera
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